[ In any other context being shirtless and huddled into a hot guy's chest sounds like a good start to a good night. It's for the better that ren won't let himself act on that selfishness, that for all he's fucked in the head and heart right now the structures that he put into place are largely intact - Yusuke fits easily under the umbrella of his protection, so he can't let himself be a source of rain, isn't that right?
If Ren needs this and Yusuke is fine giving it to him, is that enough of a reason to take it? In his mind's eye Ren can't help but see all the moments he thought were hints to him, terrible sincerity and a gorgeous lack of self-awareness that made Ren's heart flutter with hope and he sees it again in Yusuke, but when he thinks of continuing on the idea sours in his mouth. He can't, he won't lead him on.
So how then to balance that with his damned neediness? Ren wants to tell him not to lay himself out like that, to hold something back for himself in case Ren eventually can't give him the answer he wants. Because he knows how tightly that crushes a heart.
The moment passes and Ren can breathe through the hardship with the aid of Yusuke's hands soft on the curve of his skull. Against that wish in his heart Ren sighs softly and draws away again, nodding and offering a wan smile up at Yusuke. ]
Yeah. Really, I appreciate it, Yusuke.
Um, you know you basically called me a work of art, right?
[ Nervous laughter; who'd... who'd do that except Yusuke. ]
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If Ren needs this and Yusuke is fine giving it to him, is that enough of a reason to take it? In his mind's eye Ren can't help but see all the moments he thought were hints to him, terrible sincerity and a gorgeous lack of self-awareness that made Ren's heart flutter with hope and he sees it again in Yusuke, but when he thinks of continuing on the idea sours in his mouth. He can't, he won't lead him on.
So how then to balance that with his damned neediness? Ren wants to tell him not to lay himself out like that, to hold something back for himself in case Ren eventually can't give him the answer he wants. Because he knows how tightly that crushes a heart.
The moment passes and Ren can breathe through the hardship with the aid of Yusuke's hands soft on the curve of his skull. Against that wish in his heart Ren sighs softly and draws away again, nodding and offering a wan smile up at Yusuke. ]
Yeah. Really, I appreciate it, Yusuke.
Um, you know you basically called me a work of art, right?
[ Nervous laughter; who'd... who'd do that except Yusuke. ]